Saturday, June 27, 2009

Love in a Box:A love story(The night high hopes led to strange places)

So I'm sitting here, acknowledging the fact that history repeats itself in disclosed and disguised ways. Breezes right by you, and even looks at you and winks. It even blows you a kiss..and strangely, even with the wind doesn't miss.

History only ha
s to be read once, only recited twice.

Still, I sit realizing that history has repeated itself, tonight in a more timely fashion.

It wasn't late, or didn't blow right past me even.

It was bold, assertive and oddly amusing as it crept behind me and tapped me on the shoulder.


I had no other choice but to look back at it, gaze into it's eyes with the expression that asked: "why are you here?"

"I read once, and only repeated it twice, but still you stand before me, just couldn't choose to ignore me."

His story explained the should have and could have apologies that my ears were sore from having heard for half my lifetime. I've read it time and time before but obviously I couldn't get enough.

I laugh.

No.

I sigh, and realize:

That no matter which story I take the time to read. Whether it's his down the street, his down the road, or even his off the corner. The conclusion remains the same.

Different cover same book. Different singer same lyrics. Different sound same message. Different man, but the same little boy.

Him...he...his-story was the same.

Long and lame.

Damn it was a shame.

I guess my past history was to blame.

I laugh again, and just sigh because Lord knows I don't have the time to cry.

I hung up the phone without a single bye.

I closed his story that night.

With my carefully painted face, and lightly scented body. With my perfectly polished nails, and with the outfit that because of a single phone call never made it out into the night. Labeled him, he, and his story as I did the rest. Tired, simple and a mess.

Glad I got his story off my chest.

Friday, June 19, 2009

June 19th

Today:

I wake up wiser.
I wake up out of a dream and into reality.
I wake up less disturbed and more concerned.
I wake up out of one decade and into another.
I wake up admitting my mistakes and nurturing my imperfections.
I wake up out of a long battle with lust and willing to step in a long future with love.
I wake up with a song in my heart and a smile in my mind.
I wake up in the light and out of a daze.
I wake up bold and more defined.
I wake up in control with my body and most importantly my mind.
I wake up strong and prepared to become even stronger.
I wake up a day older and years beyond my means.
I wake up focused, attentive, determined and willing to find what needs to be retrieved.
I wake up admitting what I don't know and acknowledging what I still need to find out.
I wake up encouraged to obtain what's rightfully mine and leave behind what was abused and borrowed.
I wake up free and beautiful.

Today:

I wake up.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Artistic Authenticity: Mos Def's "Casa Bey"

Loving this video...

Summer Finds...Thus Far.

Browsing in Lord & Taylor with the moms and what do I come across? Well for one this jean vest by French Connection. Real spicy. Love it with a skirt or dress and with my flower brooch from Macy's that I added. Anyways just added to my summer Must-Have.

Left:

Top: Lush (Nordstrom)

Skirt: French Connection

Vest: French Connection

Brooch: Macys



Thursday, June 11, 2009

Soul Jones all in my bones: Top Twenty-five Soulful Sounds

Favs from my Favs. Music that should be in your music deck...

(In no particular order)

  1. "Believe"- Raheem Devaughn
  2. "Didn't Cha Know"- Erykah Badu
  3. "You" - Janelle Monae
  4. "Sumthin' Sumthin': Mellosmoothe"- Maxwell
  5. "Alright"- Ledisi
  6. "Halfway"-Algebra Blessett
  7. "Sometimes"-Bilal
  8. "Another Again"-John Legend
  9. "Nothing Even Matters"- Lauryn Hill
  10. "Back in Love"-Estelle
  11. "Dreamworld"-Robin Thicke
  12. "The Day We Met"-Anthony Hamilton
  13. "Half Crazy"-Musiq
  14. "Send it On"-D'Angelo
  15. "A Long Walk"-Jill Scott
  16. "Feels Good"-Rahsaan Patterson
  17. "Get it Together"-India Arie
  18. "Lay it Down"-Dwele
  19. "Stars"-Kindred the Family Soul
  20. "I love Her"-Raphael Saadiq
  21. "Getting Late"-Floetry
  22. "Get Up"-Amel Larrieux
  23. "Breathless"-Corrine Bailey Rae
  24. "Fanatic"-Vivian Green
  25. "Hopeless"-Dionne Farris

What's your soulful must-have?


Cute, Short and Sweet...

Gained an interesting message today.
Source: unknown
Truth: Definite
"Ur 2 cute 4 haters, 2 real 2 b fake, 2 sweet 2 b candy & 2 special 2 replace."
Of course it was a chain, but nonetheless an interesting one, so pass it on...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Got Work?

Home watching the timeless Martin and this episode put a smile on my frowning unemployment status.

Extra Funny :)

Today and The Day After...


Today: I laugh at myself.

I have a sudden urge to dust off my abandoned Bible and with no clue where to go, or more accurately what to look for, I turn to the back of the book to find some direction.

Thankful that no one is around I flip the pages back to the front of the Bible, embarrassed by the fact that I've just checked the back of the Bible for an index.

I sigh, laugh, and blush (as best as my chocolate skin knows how) and finally face the reality; the truth unscripted, my life: as I've come to prioritize the first last and the last first.

The truth is:

I honestly haven't held the lightly weighted and simply titled book since my last appearance in Church: April 12th, 2009 and haven't read it before than: since...well...N/A.

Searching for air, I open the book again.

This time to a randomly selected entry. I open up to a name that resonates in my mind, but in the same instance not in my memory.

ISAIAH

I skim the 54th passage and their it is, what I was unconsciously but curiously searching for:

"For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed..."

Now I don't know what this passage means to everyone, and I wont attempt to fully decipher it to the point where its unrecognizable or to generalize it and deem myself as a prominent Theologist.

But to me...at this very moment...it's telling me not to lose myself in troubling times, in times of despair or more often in times of neglect. To keep kindness and peace in my mind and love in my heart. To actually forgive and forget. To stay original, real, unique and true to myself.

(Sigh)

Tomorrow: I will still laugh, and my eyes will smile as well.

My heart will walk in front of me and not lag behind. My mind will stay at ease although I combat clear, troubling, signs. And the depth of my love will grow even deeper and help to free my mind.





Africans at their best: My fellow West African bred brotha repping the DMV extra hard...



Wale: Crisp as he wanna be...check him out: real spicy.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Love Defined: [lu v']; verb, adjective...

What does it mean to love someone? I mean truly love someone?
Does it mean spending every waking moment with that person? Consoling that person when their own heart scatters in shambles? Adoring that person until your own body weakens from neglect? Ensuring that their wound is tended to before their whole body swells up? Or loving that person past love itself?
Past all the pain and regret, and with the up most adoration and respect? Is it created? Debated? Or just simply stated without a gasp or even a breath? Without having time to think or more importantly reflect? On what it means to be loved by the love that comes from loving oneself?

Or is love just love? Undefinable. Defined by ones own intuition? Just a sudden instance or maybe some tragic condition? A word, four letters, an adjective or a verb like no other?
Love defined is simply blank. A definition with no definitive position.
Love is merely what you make it; an incomparable reflection of who you are and who you desire to be.
Love is simply: free.




Kob-Bron

This is by far the funniest Kob-Bron commercial I was faking on them before, but for real lil dez?

Check.

Fashion Talks...

...and I love what it says: "Be bold, Be new, Be you."


Monday, June 8, 2009

L.A takes the lead...

I know Orlando absolutely did not do all that hustling and bustling to be 0-2 in the Lakers series.

I've been following them by default since they smashed the Sixers, crushed the Celtics and straight canceled out the Cavs, but all that only to lose to the Lakers?...come on Magic make your never-happy coach smile.

Still 5 more games to go, we'll see what happens...

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Ears blazing...

"Blueprint 3" is not coming out til September, but its already sounding spicy. Fabo is not doing to bad himself...and Trey, well what can I say always fire. As for Amerie I love how she's repping the DMV with the drums in the background and last but not least Mos, Def-initely has me anxiously awaiting "The Ecstatic," June 9th baby! Anyways...

Enjoy!

Love,

Bug
New-Ish

Friday, June 5, 2009

Hotness...ouch!

"Vince Camuta Kimball"
Peeped these in Nordstrom Rack a while back...man I should have got them then, they were half the retail price too... anyways real spicy.

Powerful ish: Thoughts translated into visions -- Sapphire's "Push" into Lee Daniel's "Precious." Must See:

Anticipated Release Date: Nov. 2009

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Future Motivated By...

Find yours,
♥ LadyBug

Philadel-five Favs

Nothing like the Lovely presence of L.I.B in Philly-D
Roots?
Gotta have em'

"Aint no sunshine when she's gone..." Well aint no silence either.
Noise in the name of train tracks right by the window.
Silence?
Not gonna get em'

You're not in Precious Philly if you don't see a mural every block.
Art?
Gotta love em'

Number 9 got my eye because he's fly: Andre Iguodala.
Philly Sports?
Gotta Six em'

Ms. Tootsies' on a soul food Sunday...
Smothered pork ribs, mac & cheese & the can-diest yams
Philly food?
Gotta eat em'




June's Bug


Changes are timed
No more provoking thoughts
Just mindless answers
From those who don’t mind their business.
Find their business on news after dark,
While their behind the scenes lighting a spark.
Can time be reversed?
Like a heart when it hearts?
Keep my thoughts deserted from reality,
Distant, unable to obtain gravity.
Soundly, watching,
Religiously.
Gasping for air as my mind skips a beat and my heart races.
See now my thoughts are pacing

My actions.

Never heard it like this before.
Sentimental,
This mood has be miles away from reality
Catching it despairingly, just relaxing.
A rush,
Jazz has become my instant crush.
Feeling quite feverish,
Flushed.
Not trying to stare, but blood makes it clear.
A love I could have felt by just breathing the air.
Yearning for it to be near,
A feeling I can hear.
Deep, steep, deeper than the ground.
This beauty has my world upside down.
I refuse to refuse it,
It’s elusive,
Can’t excuse it.
In love for the very first time.
Jazz you blowing up my mind.
Like music to my ears?
You are the music to my ears.
Different from all the previous.
This love is so devious, quite mischievous.
Real serious…Now finally breathing.
Jazz…you keep me believing
.